pheWw~just finished doing my housework..was cleaning for like 2+hours lohz..cleaned the entire house..-faints-wash the toilet..boOo..whenever i gotta wash the toilet bowl..i wanna puke!i love using toilet bowl but not cleaning it..-yUck-and mop the entire house twice..wash basin..and wash clothes..and iron clothes and fold clothes..hahha!!-sweaTs- haha!

well..my brother wake me up this morning telling me that he is cooking breakfast for me haha!isnt he sweet?hahha!hmm..well..he SHOULD loh..who ask him to SCREAM at me on friday..HUmph!my this brother wasn't in good mood on that particular day loh..scold me scream at me..and i was like...dying from pains in my stomach lohz..coz im hungry i guess haha!its hurt till i couldn't stand up straight..and i gotta bathe with my backbone bended!sigh...its really hurts man..as i was in pain i wanna eat something so i ask if this brother of mine gonna cook anything..he said later..after watching his alien show on channel 5.i replied...wait for you to cook i die le..know WAD he SAY?he said:den go and die lohz!i was like WAD!!and i demanded an apology from him..and he ignore me lohz..continue watching his alien show!den.he went to cook chix porridge...while cooking he sun bian scream at me worz..scold me lehz..den i angry..i say i don't want to eat..and off i go to sleep..erm..cried to sleep loh!stupid brother..humph!!and on sat he called me..whuahaha..asking me if im gonna go aunt's place to take allowance..i was in school..den i reply ya lah..show him attitude haha!!whuaahaaha...den while i was having break...i cannot take it that he scold me yesterday and the apology i demanded wasn't accomplish yet!so i called him..hhaha..and he is working at Ghim moh coffeeshop..my uncle de elijah coffeeshop..i said:where are you now..you don't know how to take your allowance isit?den he replied..you sun bian help me take lah..i said why must i..you ytd scold and scream till very happy hor..scold more lah..why don't scold..you cant see im in pain ytd mehz..you know wad he say?he said:i thought you got food poisoning..i was like-faints-food poisoning?if i got food poisoning will i be able to let him scream?he is mad..haha!and i got my apology i wanted...not once worz..he said thrice..whuahahaa..den when i reach home..hehehehe...lao hu bu fa wei..ba wo dang bin mao..hahaha!i fa wei..i raise my voice..scold!!haha..i said...huh u dunno how to wash wad you use isit?waiting for who huh?you ashtray..dunno how to clean ah..wait for who huh?i keep huh huh at him..i remind him that he scolded me..whuaaha..den he say sorryyy...whahaha..den i punished him..he do the washing!!piggybag me from level 4 to level one for supper..whuaaahaha!!!one thing about my this bro is that he will always vent his anger on ppl when he is not in e good mood...he quarelled with someone..so he not happy..vent on me..but nvm..i got wad i wan..haha!!!whaahaahaa....-grins-ahahahahahazzz...whaahahahaha!

okie..on friday..after school..went to tampines to look for xin-er to go church together..and we took train from tampines all the way to boonlay..and wad we do?we entertained ourself..by?taking picturessSsss!!whuaaahahaha..pardon me..haha..and here are the pictures...











i had never taken pictures where my face is like......looking so TERRIBLE!hahaha....but its okie...i love my picturesss....haha!

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waa!!just now i wanna publish..and mua blogger turn MAD!sigh!!and i click recover post..and half of mua entries are gone!!so nvm..but thanks to recover post..i got at least half of mua entry back..okie..as i was saying.................

finally im back to blog!!finALLY!!well..if u're wondering why i have not been blogging for the past few days..its because im busy loh!haha!went church for the recording rehearsal on tue...and wed is the recording...both nights ended very late...11+++pm!!!and thank God that both nights i got free lift home!!!thanks to peiwen for driving me home and thanks to mike for letting me tong pang his cabby home!!hahha...thanks alot!!

well..these days..been thinking about loadsa stuff..about my life...what had happen to me..ever since the first day of school..well..life is tough for everyone haha!for a poor student like me too!!hahah!!but with God's strength i can overcome anything and everything hahahaha!!sometimes i do wonder why do people change in their character in just a blink of an eye..and letting the circumstances that they are in to change them..influence them..why are they not firm?its good when people do change for the better..but isn't it sad that people change for the WORST?when im trying to help..its seems that this person rather go the NEGATIVE way..thinking that life is miserable..having such low self esteem....thinking that everything that happen to this person is like this person is suaY?this person never even thought of why this happen?it would happen for a purpose lah!for you to be a stronger person...for you to grow a level higher in your maturity..and your mindset..and being firm..not getting easy influenced..i get upset when i see you like that..and that is why i choose not to talk to you.coz i think that if u need me..you will come to me one fine day..when you are awake!and i've tried times and times again..but im sorry to tel u...im tired of talking to you when whatever i say turns out to be nothing..its does no good..coz you yourself want to fall deeper..how can someone help you when you don't want to do something to help yourself?and words..watch your words..for you are already gonna step out into the real world soon...and why are u getting so easily influence..when you speak..people thinks of you from the way you present yourself..but u, being likdat..what will people think?you were so dear to me..but...being a dear to me and when im tryin to help you,but you...just doin nothing and being stubborn..don't you think i feel hurt too?you were so dear to me..but i guess..i've given up...sigh......

pictures again..don't get too shocked by some...


im jessie and jessie is me..


left to right-serena peishan huishan nelson and me..


serena and mee..


take 2


OSQ and mee!!


camera spoil!!haha!juz jk..


kinda bored during lunchtime...so we.......take piccccctureessss


while waiting for our NDP training to begin...weeeeeee.....ermsss


as lesson was about to come to an end....


dotzz..


who is this hantu????GOSH!!!hahha its nelson..acting like a gui hahaha!!


how can i miss this...here i come!!hahaha..


we...joined force!!hahhaha...

done...pardon me..haha..bear with it...just entertaining muaself..took it for the fun of taking it!whuaAAAa!!

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Baker's Boy


this is what happen when im tired..


does one of them look evil?hahahz!


mua dad mua mum and mua one year old sis..bday falls on 5th april.

okie.got home about an hour ago..was enjoying the bread i bought from Baker's Boy.erm..as you can see its written HOT and CRISPY..but...its not HOT..sigh..yesterday aunt bought the same kinda bread but its from different shop..aunt bought from Pappa Roti..it taste 100% much better!i just love it..but im not a coffee lover..i don't like coffee..but thank God the bread don't have loadsa coffee taste hahha!if there is...i will never buy haha!i used to be a tea lover.coz im forced to drink tea for every meal..but..now..no longer haha.im a qi shui lover!!hahaha..but these days im kinda into plain water nia haha!i used to love coke to the max..every meal,confirm a can of coke will appear..but now..i don't wan..after i heard from someone that coke contains 24 spoon of sugar...GOODNESS!!thats a lot!!

okie..today time flies real fast for me..hahaha..so fast im home already..haha..its like just a blink of an eye..its gonna be night time soon...tian hei hei...during lesson,did one assignment..on how to draw a frog..bee..and the sun..haha...and i forgot to bring mua thumbdrive to school..so i saved it in teachers diskette..at first i was wondering how am i gonna draw a frog...freehand tool..is like so difficult..but in the end...i drew out one frog..and a cute bee!!when im free i post it here..hahaz.

hmm..this morning during office computing lesson.did one assignment..and i scored 30/35 and my teacher yao qiu very high lehz...say dunno wad...i forgot liao hahaz..this mark is still acceptable hor?hahahz...

sighhhhhhh!!im sad loh...know how much i got for my Office Organisation test?its the worst!!31/50 which is 62/100!!goodness!!!sigh...i regretted for going out...i did not play..but went out to attend someone's aunt wake..but...i never study..i studied the last minute..from 1am to 3am..sigh!!i regretted!!!i should have know my piorities.i should have get my piorities right!!..sigh!!!its terrible!!!sigh!!!cant believe it..i did soooooooo badly!!sigh!!its not even a B!!!sigh!!!sigh!!!for those mcq..2marks for each..and i got almost all wrong for that..except for the writing...for mcq,if im not wrong..i lost 8 marks!and i gei kiang...dishonoured cheques and stale cheques are different..and i gei kiang..go and put down stale!!!aRGHHhh...i ws thinking its either dishonoured of stale..and i choose stale!!omgym!!!sigh!!i need to buck up!!sigh!!!sigh!!exams are coming soon!!!sigh...

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as usual, stayed home on sunday haha.its so good staying at home with my bro and his gf..its so bored being alone..thank God i still have a brother..ahahaz..

okie..woke up at 12+pm today..came online for awhile and off i go to disturb my brother haah!wilson is soo good lohz..wake up prepare breakfast for himself de worz..never care about jan and i de worz..haha..well i was just joking..he said he was waiting for us to be awake and he'll prepare food for us..and know what my beloved brother prepared?he fried harshbrown and sausage and egg.haha!and i served myself with peel fresh orange juice hahaa!yum yum!!that is mua breakfast cum lunch..

was lazing at home the whole day...watching vcds..we went somewhere opposite mua house to rent some vcds..haha..one is mr vampire..the other is shaolin VS evil dead.hahaz..both shows are interesting haha..funny also haha..we laugh and laugh hahaz..

grandma came over today..looking at grandma..i seriously miss her like crazy..the first thing i did when i see her is to hug her..and talk to her...she went to lie on her bed and rest..and i went to lie beside her and talk to her..heard things about some people..i just feel disappointed..but its okie...as long as she stays healthy i will be more than happy..but i cant tell myself that she is happy when i don't see that she is...today i saw grandma smile..she laughed!thank God for the laughter and smile i see from grandma..its like a long time since i last see her smile and laughter...anyway...i hate kids that have no respect for old people..and even the adults..what do u mean by go slp go slp..how can my grandma go and sleep all the time..you want her to sleep why not return her to me..she don't have to sleep all the time!!what do u mean by theres noone to take care of her..u mean u can?u cant..but your maid can..all u can do was to tell her to GO AND SLEEP..why not u jus go and sleep and at the same time do some reflections!firstly..teach your kid how to say hi nai nai whenever she see my GRANDMA..and teach ur kid to GREET MY grandma to eat!and y i said that?coz it happen right b4 me!u wan ppl to appreciate you,why not first teach your kid to appreciate the precious people ard her..do u even know how hurtful it feels when your closest kin and your most loved person is not around you?sigh...grandma watch channel 8..and channel U..but ur family are the channel 5 people..so how can grandma be occupied with something?oh yes..like wad u said..sleep right..u go and sleep first.i don't like to use hate on people..but i'll use hate on the way you do things..i'll never forget the day u came and took her away..and even say i dun appreciate whatever thing..y cant i ask grandma if she wan to go?when i ask,you say i don't appreciate the help you've given...so wad do u mean?i cant ask MY GRANDMA what she wants?if i ask means i don't appreciate you?btw...rich don't rule..u may be able to rule others..but not me..

okie..pardon me again..sigh..i hate to be this way manz..i really dislike rich people...ARghH..some are rich..and good..some are rich..but not contented..

im watching the NKF de charity show..goodness..Vincent Ng wow!!hao shuai..and very fit worz...if wilson were to be like him...wOW!!!!!!hahaa...

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peishan and mee!!!


again~its US!!hhahahaz

wanted to blog in earlier when i wake up.but i think theres something wrong with blogger..i cant get in to the blogger website hahaz.

hmm..woke up early today..at around 1015am.haha.theres no school and im waking up early..this is mad..when its time to go school..how i wish i can zzz longer..and now..i can but im awake early!haha..

yesterday went church..and after the prayer meeting we got about 5 min to take a break before service starts..and we entertained ourselves..jan xin ps and me..haha.they take their pic..we take ours..nice anot?hahahha..took some pics together with jan and xin but i think i look terrible so....as usual,i ng again...hahahaz..so deleted it lohz haha..

service went great yesterday..Pastor Kong preached about Praise and Worship..and i took notes down..and these are what i've taken..

*Focus on your problem not always on your enemy*
*Christian life is not always a bed of roses*
*Bad things do happen to good people*well..sometimes i do wonder why im always in some bad situation..when i have done nth wrong...

Ps34 says: I will bless the Lord at all times;His praise shall continually be in my mouth..even when we are in bad situation..we praise God!

and i came to my favourite verse in Psalm.haha..
Ps37:3-4 says: Trust in the Lord and do good;Dwell in the land:and feed on His faithfulness.Delight yourself also in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart.

Ps73:25-26 says: Whom have I in heaven but You?and there is none i desire besides You.My flesh and heart fall;but God is the STRENGTH of my HEART and my PORTION FOREVER!
-even when everything fail..even when im very down..even when i feels everything is hell for me..God is the STRENGTH of my HEART and MY PORTION FOREVER!!!!

was suppose to go out on sun..but..its cancelled..so its okie..haha..i'll stay home and rot haha!

theres cg meeting later..WWeeEEewwEEee.....but next week no cg meeting!!!sigh..we're having live recording in church haha!!!!

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emoticons!!

cutEE?


kawaii??

weEe..im here again..hahaz.just finish doing everything at home haha...so free now...pheWWw finally..haha!hmm..school was like a little boring today..so i drew some smileys on my book haha!and the human emoticons..my friend send me de..so funny lohz..today uncle joseph bought dinner for me again..so kind of him haha..yummie...

suddenly..i miss my grandma..sigh..aunt say..grandma go over to her place will ask about me..i go over to her place i will ask about grandma..sigh...i feels so heavy hearted..the feeling like..there's pressure compressing mua heart lehz..i miss my grandma..i want to see her everyday like i use to..but why they don't let her come back?heard that grandma cries all the time..if i go over to see her..not only i'll cry..she'll cry for sure..we wanted to be with each other..but due to some stupid none of our business...we have to be seperated..ever since my gong gong went to heaven..all i left is my grandma..now..the people bring her over to their house..where grandma don't understand english..as they are the english speaking family..den their daughter is like so no manners..basic manners also don't have..dinner time wun even ask my grandma to eat..and when grandma talk to her..she deng at my grandma..gosh..if she is mua sis..i will give her five dollars..a beautiful one..she show no respect for the oldest in the family..wad a girl..its like so long since i last seen my grandma..sigh......can she come back to me one day???

sianz...nowadays no time to go out and have fun..everyday school home NDP training..etc...no time for fun..sianz..hoilday kuai dian come lehz...so i can relax and play!hahahz..okie i know im dreaming...

i noticed i've not been talking to dad for like a month?sigh..he never come online one lehz...nv call me also...he so busy de mehz..work till likdat mehz..daughter in singapore so lonely he also nv call me sia..but i know he love me...so nvm..i forgive him hahahhaahaa!!!!!but so long nv talk i abit...not used to it..hahahaz

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well.was about to jump on my bed and zzzz...but i feel so bothered if i never say this out..so i decided to post it here..

anyway..been out for my friend aun'ts funeral..went there just to be there..to chat with this friend and other friends whom i know lahz..but there's one..irritating one...love to suan people one..and always aim to suan me one..but always the way he suan is always like...i like this person or whatever de..so stupid..its like..the words that he says contains meanings...bad meanings thou..i was boiling deep down..but still kept about 50% of my coolness..haha..if not cause of this friend..i wouldn't even go down and see your face..know this person for a long time..from the first day till this day..goodness..no good impression..and gosh..this is mua first time having bad impression on someone for years...and its like 6 long years?or more..bad impression..can you ever imagine..btw i dun hate this person..someone told me,if im not wrong its e same person..saying im a person that forgives but never forget...HELLO!!please..im a human..you think press the keyboard the delete button can str8 away forget?siaoz!to me, forgive and forget means..forgive wad the person did..and forget about that incident that had happen and not talk about it..not that kinda FORGET aka DELETE!aiyo!!goodness..i wonder what on earth are the people in the world thinking..this person read my entries and come and joke with me..joke some stupid stuff anyway..and always talked about R-RATED stuff..gosh...YUck!despise such people...i don't mind joking with others..but im sorry to this STRANGer..i have no time for ur jokes..dear friends..know what..i see this person is like looking at SA TAN..so qian bian de SA TAN..so irritating de SA TAN..this person is like dirty minded..sit at one table..sure got one time he bom out some stupid topic one..and the topic is STUPID zong de STUPID..aRGghh i cant stand this kinda people on earth..wonder why is he in my life..please get out..u're not welcum..this person don't know what is called limits..don't know what is call enough don't know what is called healthy topic..his mind is filthy..oh no...he is contaminated!hahahhahahahahaha!!virus...must stay away..pardon me for being this way..people i don't like..too bad for them..i guess..he is the only one that i dislike hahahahahahaha!he is so worldly...what can i expect...this person is older than me..but i tel u..mindset...goodness..he need help!gamble is all he knows...hahha!was talking to this person online..was saying him..i said..dun worrie ur name will nv be mentioned in mua blog..and i said y he everyday come mua blog de...is jus askin....and i suppose this guy got offended?ask me dun one to let ppl see then lock my blog..and he went offline lahz..den i sms him coz i obviously cant reply him online..he said..that prob he already offline sae wad im too free sms him and said dun waste my time to sms him and dun waste his time to read.wow..i think his common sense not so common..cant reply online ofcoz i sms and reply lah..DUH!!!STRANGER...since its a waste of ur time to read the sms..so dun waste your time come my blog and read.coz its much much much longer than the one page sms i sent.

okie..i was just letting my anger out..pardon me for jus a little while hahaz...theres more i wanna sae..but i think its enough here...so stop it lohz..hahah

oh ya..another incident..happen this afternoon in school..sigh...i saw this guy...gotten know him before i was a christian..he's name is ah long...saw him quite a number of time in church..if im not wrong he is serving in the usher ministry..very good right?

but im wrong..not everyone in church is good..actually i knew it long ago..but now i confirm liao..know why i said that...the story goes like this:
after eating my lunch..i was walking over to the co-op shop with my friends..and we saw this guy scolding some sec sch visitor..he was using profanities to scold this boy..and he is like a chao ah beng..and wanted to fight..i somehow heard him saying diao si mi diao..den a lot of @#$%^$#!!%^& le..i was shocked!!!aren't we suppose to shine for the Lord?angry also no need to use words likdat..and he is scolding this boy in front of everyone..even when the boy's teacher is beside him..and the teacher have to bring him away from this HOOLiGAN!i was walking pass..and i said out loud..hey this guy from mua church de lehz...den i sae but why is he acting this way?sigh..-roll eyes-i dun understand..why is he likedat...usher ministry de...but in school..acting like a hooligan..not friendly...use vulgarities...gosh!my school...a good school...but nv mention the students...sigh...

okie..that's all...enough of my complaints....i dunno why i got so many to complain about ppl ard me...sigh..im just upset with the world..i jus love to have friends in the lovely kingdom of God..ppl in the world..negative in everything they do..other people is advice friend not to gamble..i got fren who ask another to gamble..this is madness....this type of friend...gei wo,wo dou bu yao!!sigh...can someone tel me ways so that i can calm myself down whenever this happen?sighhhhh......seeing this people i headache only...

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im back!!well, if you've been wondering why i did not blog for the past few days..the answer is im lazy haha!

these days..im very lazy lehz..except for today hahaa~reached home after school..clean the entire house...now my house is cleaned!haha..

today uncle joseph very good lehz..bought dinner for me and i need not pay a single cent hahaz.that's so kind of him..hahaz

yesterday had Office Organisation test..sigh..no confident that i will get the marks i used to get..coz i studied during the very last minute...sigh...

went to watch samara with my bro and his friends..not scary de...waste money...

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jus finished washing bowls etc..haha!hmm..today..kinda surprising that i reached school early..i reached school at 8.05am haha!lesson starts at 8am but teacher give us time till 815am.haha!so im not late.hahaz.

hmm..today my day went just fine..haha..hmm..i wanted to blog yesterday about my NDP thing..well..i got selected..and there's no more audition le haha!today...lesson ended early..suppose to end at 4pm but Mr Tay let us off at 310pm haha!den i have got nowhere to go.so i took bus number 2 home lohz..reach home..straight away bathe and rush back to school for the NDP costume measurement..and i was so shocked when my name was called up..is like the dance instructer is choosing some people to play impt roles..im still not sure if i am one of them haha..but..my frenz are not called up..why???then im alone de...den we did 3 eights..the steps not really simple..but need to do some shakes lahz..i abit cannot lehz haha!but training at home!hahaha!im sure i can do it..hahaz..

sighhHHhh....exam are coming next month..im a little worried for it!!especially for my Office Organisation paper...need to study the entire book!gosh~

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im back here again~wanted to blog last few days but im lazy.haha!okie..and here i am..finally~haha..

i don't know what to blog lehz..okie..these few days kinda reluctant to go school lahz..personal reason..how i wish ting mel they all fly to my school asap lohz..then i will have at least people who know me inside out..up down left right..do i look like those can let people bully dE?i don't think so lohz~few days back,a friend of mine..punch me on my arm..goodness...i wonder why my arm did not turn blue black lehz..when i feel it...i feel pain lehz..sigh..another one..talk like not happy de..not happy den dun talk lahz...or just walk off likdat de lehz..i dislike people like that..and theres something call inform...paper passing around...just leave it on my bag..till my teacher ask liao den i know the paper is there...after somebody signed on the paper.....its their responsibility to inform the other friend that the paper is there..come on!common sense!now im not gonna be so friendly in school..stupid people..attitude...stupid attitude...go change that stupid attitude...don't want to talk den stay far far away...don't come and spoil peoples mood...get the **** outta mua life!yuck!eeeeeeEEe erRRrr....i feel yucky that i got friend likdat lehz..abit not used to it...esp guys...having such intolerable attitude...testing my tolerance...gosh!cant take it!YUCK!!!ARGGGHhhHHhh!

*since u are like that,i'll leave you alone.since u are behaving likdat..you will never grow up.*
well..maybe im thinking too much..but i confirm i will not feel that way unless it had happen...because it is so not u...get wad i meant?well if u don't,nvm...it quite understandable..

i've not met people likdat..esp guy!omgym!girls attitude..i still can overcome...but its guys...i feel its like they are not manly lohz..like small boy loh...sigh...if that is the case...every morning i go to sch..see that stupid attitude...forget about talking to you...telling you reason like pls dun do this pls dun do that...its like useless.....btw...sometime please know your limits..eventhough im smiling to all the words that u say...doesn't mean im okie with wadever that comes out from that mouth of yours.

im not perfect..there's times i will be sad angry...dosen't mean one word..forgive...means i have to really forgive..if u are angry..i believe u wun str8 away forgive that person!even animal have time to cool down..wadsmore,im a human being..i need time too okie..words like..buay song ah..shut up..very nice mehz...respect people a little lah..u can say..keep quiet.its sounds better den SHUT UP!and buay song,can i ask if you are a ah beng?please be civilised..im sorry if i said shut up to you or whoever...

sigh...these days..im so not me!!gosh..i cant take it..i feel so different...i don't say shut up to people..now i do..gosh...i just feel im so not meee!!sigh..i cant take it...some people in my class like to say shut up also lohz..so not nice...den now i say..sigh...omgym!!i cant take it..

i know wad im gonna do to change for the better...whoever use those words..on me..if you got scolded by me then its just too bad for u.and for those who give me attitude..if you got shoot on the face by me then its just too bad for you..im friendly and people treat me this way..okie...fine!!!i will have my way now...

i don't understand why people cant be friends in a friendly manner.....why??tel me why?

all i know about myself..i need to change...for the better not for the worst...

sigh..im sad lahz...about everything lahz...again..i am who i am..i am who God says i am..i am who God calls me to be...please stay away from me if u're trying make life difficult for me..get out of my life..you are not welcome to be part of my life....GET OUT!!!OUT OUT OUT!!!!

okie..forget it...im tired...tired of everything...

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yaWn~just got up from my dreamland.so tired~hahaz..im hungry!!hahaaaa!!and its sunday!!time fliess!!!!!!im out 6 out of 7days...im busy 6 out of 7 days!can i just be busy 3 out of 7 days..and i can rest for 4 days?hahaha!dream on hahah!everything is like a routine..school home everyday..den school home church home den home cg meeting home..left my sunday to myself..but its all for cleaning up my house!!!!clean one whole house very tiring lehz..esp when im not the only one using e house..but ended up im the only one who does the cleaning..sigh...nvm lahz..the Bible says:its better to give than to receive...so its okie hahah..

hmm..yesterday was our first cg meeting after the multiply.heez.eventhough the group became smaller.i still like it haha!!

after cg meeting i went down city hall to meet fel darren and that ah jun,that ah jun..drag till from 7+pm till 9+pm den come..he came that EARLY!wanted to eat the marina south steamboat but i think coz jun never eat so we all decided to eat something else.hahaz.hmm..after eating...went to esplanade..the rooftop..wow there's alot of people..hahaz..i stayed for awhile and off i go to meet wilson darling!hhAAAaaAAa!well..wilson was with janice and i become the extra haha!went to Tong Roma's(suntec) to visit?the dunno who?i forgot who already..all i know there's a lot of people lahz.hahaz.when i step into TR(suntec) i remembered of TR(orchard) i was working there 2 years ago..kinda miss working there at the job is good lahz.but i just don't like one of the manager there lahz..keep talking about R-RATED stuff...so sick about it..everytime de lehz..never stopped de..working there...the time pass very fast one haha!but one thing i dislike..the manager despise me..says i do things very slow..but den nv wonder why im slow..because i need to talk to my guest waD!take order fast also not good..take order slow got despised...but nevermind..it won't affect me haha!i'm thinking where should i work when im having holidays..im already planning for my long holidays at the end of this year haha!

okie~i went to watch the eye 10 yesterday...with wilson and his gf ofcoz...we screamed and laughed together.hahaz..kinda funny lohz..the breakdance..the choptick put into the mouth jus to make the sound haha!

know wad?i reached home at ard 1++am and janice and i went to clean the toilet..hahha!some people make my toilet sticky!!stupid de lohz...sigh...i brought breadtalk bread lehz..haha..for my entire week de..haha..im broke..pay hp bill..everything gone liao!ahahz..but its okie lahz..its better to pay off everything than to stay in debt..but im still owing 5 dollars to the bill hahahhaa!!oppsss...hahaz

xin-er got a new phone!!i also want to get a phone...sign..slowly wait till im working...sigh~

these days..its hard to forget something..esp for someone..sigh...okie..forget it.

okie~im gonna go and satisfy muaaa stomach hahaha!

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yAwN~~ just got home about half an hour ago..im dead tired manz.i was sleeping in the train till i don't wanna leave the train haha!tired!!!!!!!

okie..i went to school EARLY today..and to my surprise..there's NO LESSON!gosh!!why didn't the teacher inform all students the day before..so we don't have to wake up early the following day!why??????sigh...i was in the library together with my group of friends discussing about the project problem lah..i got so many things i wanna complain about some of the members in the group..but well..its okie lah..if they want the marks..they take loh..i reach school at 8 and there's no lesson till 11am...very long loh...i can sleep at home de lohz...waste my time only in school..and do nothin..sianz..

then during my mdp=multimedia desktop publishing lesson...guess half of the class turn up only..and im like so bored..don't really feel like paying attention to what the teacher is talking about..we're learning macromedia flash..i fall asleep for like five min hahaz..den quickly pay attention..and den everyone wanna go off early..and its like 240pm i think...we ask teacher to let us off..then the teacher-miss leng says...still got five min..den someone said..5 min only..still dun let us off..den miss leng says..okie two and a half min more..den we peng!den we HUHHHHhhhh..den miss leng says:okie lah..go lah ahahhaa!!!den we all go off haha!!miss leng so funny de lehz hahaz...

hmm..i guess i'll stop here for now..add on later..tired~~

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i can so confirm that this is not the colour of my skin..im not so fair de.i confirm...guarantee chop chop!!!!im not white okie!

okies..erm..took the picture while i was waiting for serena xiao jie.haha her 10mins is like PhuAAaa dunno how long haha!but nevermind..im very patient de..i wait loh..since im waiting for her and i got nothing to do...this is what i do..i take pictures haha!pardon me for doing this haha!!

well..i was saying im going back to school right?i said i got the NDP thingy to attend to right?and guess wad?the NDP practice held today was for those who did not turn up last week!!and i was there last week!!but noone tell me that i don't have to go today!!!and i happily went there..had my dinner in school...waste my $$$..if nv go..that $$ will go to my lunch tomorrow loh!waste my time also...my time are so precious lehz..haha!but nvm..all things happen for good lahz..hahaz..

okie..guess that's all for today!!take care people!!love you all to biTTssSs!!

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i just got home~bored~~~~know why school ended so early?because 2 of my teacher are on course.so i have no lesson.so everyone go home loh.butTTTt!!!i still gotta go back to school!!coz im involved in the NDP thingy!!aRGGHhhh why must todaY???other day lah!!im tired lehz.i want to zzzz!sigh..nevermind..i shall go den...but i will miss my 9pm show lehz!!gosh!!i wannna see the ah long lehz!!okie forget it!miss one day nevermind de haha!

okie~i wanted to add something to my post yesterday but i forgot..its about my NApfa de..know wad..when its my turn to do the standing broad jump..i happily jump and landed on where???my BUTTTTT!!!-oUcHhHh-and..the class...laughed at me lah!haha!thanks lehz haha!

i have a problem here..why people never do project can get marks?i don't understand..sigh nevermind...

oh yes..that passerby replied..sae wad ite very educated lehz..a sarcastic way lahz..but too bad.people who look down on ITE students like me trying to make me feel terrible..haha!give it a break...this don't work on me still haha!it will just make me feel that this person is trying to find ways to irritated me..making feel like the world is the end..too bad..my life is filled with blessings from God!unlike some passerby...haha!opps...shall not sae ppl likedat...not worth..this passerby very jue jiang de lehz.soOOoOoo poor thing..like a poor child..lacking of love..lacking of maturity also..this person is in lack of loadsa thing lahz.but i believe somewhere somehow this passerby is good at least for a point..this person is good at keep on keeping on..striving on..is good in a positive way..if its used in the positive way..but passerby use it on the negative way...passerby keep on keeping on scolding people!hahha!!im wondering what negative things work on me lehz?well this year is a year of character moulding...any challenges?come find me..i will be more than happy to take up that character,attitude challenge...haha!in conclusion,passerby is someone with determination!!thats good!good...in the wrong way loh!but nevermind.whatever it is...i forgive u passerby!God bless youu!!haha!

im tired im gonna rest!add on again...

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im back!!

WEeeeEEeeeEe!!as you guys know that i was preparing for my script reading yesterday.and thank God that i did good while reading!!my teacher says mine is fluent!Praise the Lord!!wow!!prayer works!

okie..today,there's a carnival in school.well i was there.there's free styling of hair..and free makeup.most of the guys will be at the styling of hair..haha..some turn up looking so handsome..but actually i saw one only..at first i saw him,he look not very nice looking larhz.den when the hair stylist style the hair..gosh!!he look so good!kinda cute larhz..den got two male hairstylist..wow..their hair...so nice can...haha.

then the make up de..hmm..i was thinking if i should go and join in..since its free..but second thought..they are using the same thing on everyone..each and everyone skin is different..i scared will spoil my skin..i decided to drop that idea haha!

after that,i went to the forum to watch performance..break-dancing...fashion show!!GOSH!!the fashion show...wOOOOwwwWW!!i wonder if the models are from the school..they look sooo charming!but my school?charming guys?erm...there's good looking ones..but with that kinda character..erm!got one model look so like Jay Chou lehz..so like him loh!i was staring at him all the way..frm the bus stop till the mrt station haha!but he smokes lehz..Jay Chou smokes anot?that guy started smoking..i've stopping thinking he's good!hahaz.like ah beng loh..someonesae he like very erm...kl?but well..its him haha!but he is good looking lah..that's the fact.hahaz.

okie..den..i wanted to eat ice-cream..its free..but when i go to the ice cream store..there's nothing there!!finishing liao!!sigh..so i decided to take popcorn and candy floss...i queue till im gonna faint..so many people..and is like not one person take one only lehz..is one person take 11 candy floss de lehz..after taking all the candy floss and popcorns..SIGH!!i didn't have the chance to EAT!!was looking for friends who ask me to help to take candy floss..and that candy floss cannot wait de can..it melt so FAST and i've got no choice but to throw it away!!den popcorns!i holding 4 cups of popcorns and i did not eat!!i take popcorns but dunno who they belong to!so i gave it to my fren..and wad i eat in the end??? NOTHING!queue so long...help people..now...i have nothing in my stomach!!but nvm...had sprite at least hahaa!!!

well.back to the passerby..that person replied..i thought that person will cool down and talk properly..not using words..but sadly,to my disappointed..passerby turns out to be like a childish person..a person who is unreasonable..and a person with a terrible attitude.scolded me b*tch and dunno wad loser.well..i wasn't provoked.i dunno y.but i wasn't.in the past i may be very angry..wanna kill that person..but now..i did not..i replied the person.haha!i said:is all that few words that passerby know?i said please grow up.well..i seldom see grown ups acting this way..and i wonder does this passerby know wad does it mean by a loser..that person dun even know me.how would he/she know im one?acting kiang wad!haha!i ask passerby to stay away as we are all educated people with good vocab in our mind.and i said..do passerby speak eng?haaa!!i feel more like laughing than getting angry when that passerby use those filthy words on me!haha!i guess this passerby is nothing to me..trying to affect me..scolding me this way..haha..this time this passerby met someone like me..haha..i wonder if he/she got high blood pressure?if that person feel very dui den too bad lohz..words dun affect me..im not afraid of that person.im only afraid of the Lord my Almighty God!Do Not Fear was mention in the Bible for 365 times..so i will not be afraid of this nothing passerby haha!do u think passerby is a broken hearted?till now im thinking if he/she is anot lehz..this person keep saying people..just want to hurt people..this person is not sensitive to how other feel.this person just think everyone is loser lah!hahha!it so sad when there's people likdat..this person need healing!this person need love!this person need help!

okie..the passerby matter will stop here haha!if there's replies..i will add on..see how more longer that passerby wanna scold..i wonder if he/she feel like he/she is the loser anot!that person is the one that keep saying ppl loser..dun even know me sae im a loser haha!thanks lehz..but i can tel u im not haha!wad a ye mang de passerby!haha!

i gotta complete one assignment..i shall add on some other time!!take care everyone!!love u all!

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okie!im here..

dear readers..i wanna share something here.i've been reading my friend's blog.and poor her,her taggie was invaded..someone called passerby came and scold her..words like b*tch and stupid fool!gosh..why would there be such people on earth?and the passerby even ask her to think about wad she had done..i was laughing in my heart..know whY?how would my fren know wad she did when this person just named himself/herself as passerby?and everyone..and i mean everyone knows that everyone will commit something wrong in their life..and this passerby seems like blaming her for something..just coming her taggie and keep going against her.this is so terrible..hopefully that passerby will stop this scolding people matter..actually i feel that passerby is a ke lian person..know why?he/she make me feel that he/she have got hatred in heart..so ke lian..making himself/herself terrible by hating people..is just a waste of time..and i cant help it but to tag at her taggie telling the passerby to stop it..but this passerby is like a kid...a stubborn one..don't listen..why must this person go tag people and hurt people's feeling..using words to hurt people..and this passerby dun even dare to name him or herself..its so obvious that this person is afraid..goin taggie and scold..making people feel sad..angry...is all that this passerby want..isnt it a sad thing..this passerby..sigh...is this passerby a broken hearted?well.i may know nothing between that passerby and my fren..but..why cant that passerby talk to her str8 on her face..to settle the problem..better than hating her..and using words..people in the world..they really need help..forgivness is the key to ur happiness..hope that passerby forgivess....maybe she did something wrong..but..how would she know when passerby saes nth..but scoldin?how does one hand clap?yuck!i dislike hatred!

okie~thats all about passerby..well today..in school..everything went fine..i love going to school these days haha!eventhough its kinda tiring..but..its for my future..no matter how tiring it is..i will continue to strive..

today stayed in school till like 545pm..gosh..so late lohz..im dead tired can..rush home...need to rush the project again..den gotta memorise some script for tomorrow..-faints-but i know i can do it..with God's strength..all things are possible!AMEN to that!

okie..i need to continue to memorise my script liao..God Bless me!!God bless everyone!!

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hmm.i shall drop an entry here before i go off to my dreamland.haha!ehx..my day went.....went....tiring?i was yawning and yawning in school haha!i cant take it when teacher is doing the explanation so slowwwwwwww!!but well..i managed to listen a little..i just rest my eyes..hahaz!

today during Office Organisation lesson..i got back my result!!!!hahahaha!!!!!!hahahahahhaha!!!im flying im flying!!!hahha...know how much i got???i got 89/100!!haha!good anot??good anot??eventhough it did not meet up to my expectation for myself.but i think i did great!haha!i actually thought i can get 95/100!ahaha!sigh..and me horz..super duper act clever sia!some things which is not suppose to be written i write..and in the end -1mark!den i have no confident in one answer and i crossed it out..and wrote the other ans...and guess wad...im wrong..the right answer is the crossed out de!!!GOSH!!i lose mark again!!!den horz..must write amount of money...i wrote the thousands...and the tens...but i missed out the hundredsss!!!GOSH!!!!see...i "generously"give my marks away!!!when i got the paper..i saw my mark...was just a little sad abt it..i did not expect to get the marks i got..i expected better and higher..coz the paper is realllly easy...that is also wad Mr Tay says!hahaz..but nvm...im contented..i got 75 and above and...i will have a free dining at CRYSTAL JADE!!!!!!hhahahaz...thanks to NELSON hahahaa!!

hmm..by wednesday i should have memories my Effective Communication's script..and...i've not prepared for it yet..i've not memorise anything yet.and the script i typed out is sooooooo long!!!how??sigh...im thinking how lehz!!sigh...

sigh..i keep thinking and thinking abt...........sigh..nvm forget it...

okies...oh i just remember..i have a fren..whose fren has a very wierd sms style...like...o'clock is sms as=eklok.den us is sms as=arse!gosh!hahaz..den going i think sms as=gowin.and more lah...but i forgot le haha!

im gonna zzz soon..take care everyone!Be blessedd!!

muackkKK

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okie~finally im home..still got a little spare time to spend.haha!im dead tired.i need my bed haha!

well..as i was saying yesterday about going SIS!!the drama....WOW it was wonderful!so funny..tuo diao tuo diao haha!those who were there knows what im saying..na na na na na!ahaha!i went for all 3 services!and for all 3 services,i was tired..but i did not enter dreamland!i feel so glad to be at SIS to watch the drama and listen to the precious word of God!and most importantly..Pastor prayed for healing..for people with sickness..disability..all that..and also..this alzhemer...something..which my brother got it.was itchy and he scratch till....omgym...terrible..if wilson was there,if he believe...i know God will heal him!but sadly...he did not go..i invited him loh!!i was hoping he will go so that with God's power he will be healed...sigh..GOD!!wei her?i really hope he will go and receive the blessings You are giving.....but.....i have faith...one day!!!my brother will be in the Kingdom of God together with me..praising and worship and serving God together wholeheartedly!!!!!AMEN to that!!!!im really glad im there in SIS!!!

4 reasons why Jesus stayed on the cross:
1. Jesus stayed on the cross so that all our sins will be taken away.
2. Jesus stayed on the cross to free us from every bondage.
3. Jesus stayed on the cross to heal our sicknesses.
4. Jesus stayed on the cross to redeem us from every CURSE.

and wad is a CURSE?
a CURSE is a continual defeat of failure in life.failing and failing..struggling in poverty.

Jesus become poor so we,through His poverty may become rich.

those whom i've invited.did not come.but its okie.there's always other time.sadly u've missed the great service...

hmm..i've decided...to be a person full of committment..to church heez..and my studies lahz.i wanna help in my cg!

hee..TF send me the song tong hua de mtv!!gosh..it sooo touching....

i got this chc tuo diao song hahahaha!!!thanks to mel haha~

well..hmm..all i wanna say is that Jesus is the answer,for the world today!!

God bless!

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26th March 2005

ohhhh~~~my dear diary!!

i was hesitating if i should blog today or the following day.but i miss blogging.so here i come!!ahaha!!i wanted to blog yesterday..but i was too tired to do anything hahaz.

okie.as i wrote in earlier that im gonna go to help out at children church..and yes i went yesterday haha!if was..actually..alright loh.alright till when i finaaaaalllyyyy got the chance to step into B4 to give presents to the little children..oh man~they are just sooooOOooOOo adorablee!!!!!goodnesss!!i saw this girl...while i was busy giving presents away to the boys only above 7 years.she seems like a 4 year old girl.she look so sweet so cute..soo pretty loh..and her innocent face hahaz..melted my heart hahaz.she came to me saying:teacher..i want the glow in the dark one...but i cant give her...coz she is too young not above 7 and she's not boy..so i say:im sorry..i cant exchange gifts for u.and she sadly turned away..i mumbled and said:i really want to give it to you,but i really cant..everything jiao dai hao le..cant change presents..so sorry lohz ahahz.

wow~you guess know wad..these days..kids..very into style yea?while i was at level one to wait for the little children to arrive..saw this little girl..wow know wad she's wearing?she wore boots!!!another wear halter neck top.one like mini skirt..den got one boy...oh dear!!!he walk like a little ah beng!!!the hair hor..got tail and the sideburn long long de can...wow!!its really ta kai yan jian hahha!!

well...today..was a hungry day for me...i have no time to eat..so i had a&w=air and water all the way from 9++am till 7++pm...wake up early in the morning at 8..hesitating if i should go for my NDP thingy in school.didn't want to go de lehz..but in the end...i go lah..for my cip point hahaz!!rush there...then rush to SIS...rush and rush...no time to eat..after first svc.need to queue str8 for 2ndsvc..so no time to eat...but thanks to peishan's2 friend..haha..for the fish burger..haha!it did some help for my hungry stomach..eventhough i feel nth after eating it..haha..too hungry le lahz..

the drama very funny lehz...those who did not go SIS u miss a nice drama play..so funny and interesting...and the sermon for EAster...erm anyway..i need to zzz..will add on tmr..need to wake up early tmr...hahahaz!!

take care everyone!!!

hmm.i got nothing to do now.so i come blogging hahaz..i noticed something about my pictures i took ytd...abit wierd..coz...i look so different...haha know why?coz at home mahz..no need to da pan mei mei de..den no need put make up de.den clip my hair..hahaz..background too dark cant see my black clip ahah!did anyone ever noticed why i don't wear spectacles outside?haha..coz bu mei mah...i don't wear contact lens also..i scared tio stuck in my eye hahahaha!!that's one thing about me..go out must mei mei..at home...no need lahzz hahaz..

im going cityhall later..meeting anne ahahaz..so bored now..

im hungry...feel like eating ban mian..from suntec de lehz..shar is eating ban mian from suntec worz..cant blame..she work at suntec hahahaa!!!so gooodddd..yum yum...sigh i no choice..can eat instant porridge only..

know wad..i very power lehz haha...kinda stupid but ya..haha..this whole week..i ate bread and instant porridge only hahaha!power hot..i feel so fat!!!!EEEEeeEEEeeWwwWWwww.....

nvm..i will jian fei when school starts..excercise and excercise hahhaha!!!know wad...badminton can really make me sweat like crazie..hahaz

okie..stop all my rubbish...im gonna do some cooking now..

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today~~a sleepy day..raining in the later afternoon.hao bu rain jiu zai wo awake den rain.i was sleeping since 2++pm till 4++pm..den it rain and i was feeling so warm..was lazing around the entire day..and grandma was here since morning..wEeeee!!hahahzz..miss her so much..was suppose to go for my POS meeting.den i wan to stay and accompany my grandma..so i did not go..

hmm..did nothing much today..sleep and watch tv..haha..hmm this friday im gonna go church to help out at the children church ministry..haha!!kids are just so adorable..haha i love kidsss!!hahaz..and this weekend its our Easter celebration...i cant wait to go Singapore Indoor Stadium hahaz..it will be great being there..ahhaha!

hmm..to entertain myself again..at home...i took picturessss!!!haha..oppsss..pardon me for being zi lian...actually hai hao loh..i just like taking pictures lahz..so just bear with me hahah!!and here i go~~~~


know why i took this?i was wondering why some people like to take their side view..so...maybe..i can try too?hahhaa!!so can ma?hahaz


this face abit like qian bian horz?hahaha!!this is me...with a qian bian face..ahahaz..but dun mistaken..im not those qian bian type of person haha!all i want is peace!hahaz!World peaCe!!


im having difficulty here..wad pose should i pose next???????


hmm...i think i look so wierd with this face...hahahz!!


well.i can get hungry when im busy taking pictures....hahhaa!!hMMMMmmmMmm!!!


hmm..i think i know wad can i eat~~~


i've decided to eat this!!!hahaha!!!


this pig cutttteeee hor????given by my dear xin-er worz..help me to save money hahaha!!!


can i be a teacher-to-be????look like nerd or not???hmmm..


took this while i was on the phone hahaha!!!too bored ya..actually..take for fun hahaa!!!!

just in case you guess were wondering how come my background so dark..haha..i never switch on my room light..haha i use table lamp hahaz!!

okie..that's all...pardon me for all this hahaha!!!!please understand that im a self-entertainer..hahazzzz..opppSSss

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Artist:
3t
Album:
Brotherhood
Title:
I Need You

I need you girl
I couldn't live a day without you
Well I tried to write a special song
A love song just for you
To explain the way you make you feel inside
Thought the meaning may be simple
And the words may not be new
I couldn't make it clearer if I tried
I need you
And I couldn't live a day without you
I need you
More than anyone I ever know
I need you
And I wanna build my world around you
I need you
I need you
Well I sang the words and realized
It had all been said before
So I tried a different rhyme that meant the same
But it didn't have the feeling
And the first one said much more
So I guess I'll have to say it once again
I need you
And I couldn't live a day without you
I need you
More than anyone could ever know
(More than anyone could ever know)

Couldn't live a day without you girl
I need you and I wanna build my world around you
Baby I need you
Oh I need you(Baby)
Couldn't live a day without you
More than anyone could ever know
(More than anyone could ever know)
Couldn't live a day without you girl
I need you and I wanna build my world around you
I need you
I need you
(I need you)
(I want you)
And I couldn't live a day without you
(Couldn't live a day without you)
I need you
(Yeah yeah)
More than anyone could ever know
(More than anyone could ever know)
I need you
(I need you)
(I want you)
And I couldn't live a day without you
(Couldn't live a day without you)
I need you
(Yeah yeah)
I need you
Well I tried a special song
A love song just for you
I need you

i'll miss you girlssssss!!!

just woke up from my lalala land hahaa!since i've got nothing better to do at home..hmm..i'll upload pictures lohz.

i've posted an entry yesterday.but i deleted it.coz..it's all complaintssss about who?him lahz..so forget it..i shall not bear any grudges..hmm..i woke up and hog on mua computer haha!!

so boredddd~~blasting songsss...hahaz..

my friend just got back from malaysia..sigh..her grandma passed away..coz of a fall in the toilet..and her grandma's head knocked on the toilet bowl..and passed away the next day...life is so precious...my deepest condolences to the family...

wilson went back to camp yesterday.and again..i'm alone..actually sometimes i wonder why must i be alone..but its okie lahz.hahaz..all i want is grandma and wilson..the rest i don't want..i can only trust them..and they are my closest..closer on the inside..far on the outside..we're serperatedddddd!!sigh..nvm..i think i've been independent for like a month..life not so bad.eventhough problemmsss and problemsss keep pouring like rain..haha.but im fine...character moulding..im fine ahaha!

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hmm..its a hot afternoon today.heez.and im staying at home together with my beloved brother.hahaz.well he gotta book into camp on monday.haha.so my day today is for him haha!see..im such a good little sister of wilson haha!

just got home abt 2hours ago from shar's place..stayed over at her place ytd hahaz..went to watch hitch at tampines mall till ard 2++3am..haha..its a very interesting show....a must watch movie aha..funny...shar was laughing so loud...hahah!!

yesterday..the heart pounding moment....finally ended..haha..the result..im staying with shar haha..the most funny part is the time when its jae and TF turn...to see who is gonna stay or go another group but still under shar lah..shar very funny...want to annouce den change topic..and worst..skip their turn....then jae is like soooooo kan chiong hahazz..in the end...TF and jae stay haha!

well..yesterday..had a sumptuous meal..haha..so nice..have four chicken..one black pepper chicken..kuay...fried shrimp.fried dumpling..salmon bread...drinks...kuay teow...chai tao kuay haha!!so many...yummmm...after eating...and laughing with all the jokes...we took pictures..haha...upload some other time..took with rochelle they all de..heez...now bz lahz..no time...

gtg buaizzzz

sigh..just tot about my grandma...she is on her way to cck cemetary to visit my gong gong..sigh..well in the cab home...i tot of my gong gong.and again...i teared...but nvm...i miss him mahz..and also my nai nai hahaha!!God bless them both...Bless my gong gong in heaven...im really wondering wad my gong gong is doing...still sitting and watching his days of his life vcd?haha!or chatting with Jesus?hmm..and bless my nai nai...let her be happy always....not cryin always...and strong legs...strong health...

so bored now....sianzzzz

yaWn~~just wake up from my beautiful sleep haha!hmm..yesterday went church..i'm so glad that i went.i was feeling tired and lazy to go actually.but i still went,coz i want God more than anything else haha!

as you guys know these days my life is like so down..well.i decided to lift it up to God.God will take all my worries,all my sadness,all my pains,and my broken heart.and i believe God will heal me once again..

yesterday i step into the B4 auditorium..once again i felt the presence of God..i've not been likdat for quite a while.and i praise and worship God.and i just teared..tears flowing and flowing..i want to keep on keeping on.i want to grow a level higher.i want to serve God more.i want to be on fire for God.i want to give God my everything.He love me on whoever i am.love me unconditionally.give up His life for my sake and everyone.died on the cross.was crucified.the pain and suffering he took..for He love us.

yesterday was singing hallowed be your name.i love that worship song!hahaz!

Eph4:26 says: "Be angry and do not sin". do not let the sun go down on your wrath.

well..today having the last N235 cell group meeting!!!WEEE!!!coz we're gonna multiply!!cell group too big le lahz..so gonna multiply haha!im gonna miss u all!!!must stay in touch worz haha!!!today having potluck for cellgroup..each and everyone will bring something..not something to play..but something to EAT!!aiya the cell group members love eating!!guys..i will really miss u all de lehz..haha!

yesterday after church,went bedok de 85 market to eat!!went with shar anne xin-er yingwei mike TF and jae.hee..i ate fried prawn noodle..yummieee..hahaz..and many more lahz..the egg..the carrot cake..all that..hhaz..and chat and chat till my eyes closing haha!so everyone went home ahaha!reached home ard 2++ and..i jump str8 onto bed and zzz..im jus too tired to bath..but..i wash my face haha!scared got pimple lahz!!know what when i reach home..my bro ask me to go and eat..i was like....gonna puke coz im already too full hahaz..i said i eat already.hahaz..den he went off with joseph..joseph his fren not my uncle..uncle joseph zzz soundly at that point of time hahaz..wonder y he still want to stay in the smelly house..haha!!well..i've forgiven him..so forget it hahz

was talking abt the DISC people...i am the SD person..haha!but its quite scary...can be peaceful..for quite sometime..den..if im angry...i will keep my anger.keep and keep...den explode like a bomb..haha!!it happened just a few days ago..and i think its really scary..imagine..for a moment..im still the happy jessie..peaceful girl..but i store up my anger..and when i cant take it...i'll just..explode!!hahaa!!

gonna fly to serangoon to take my allowance...wee...im rich again!!haha!!i've been poor for one week lehz...sad de can haha!

know something about Avril Lavine.she is a mean woman.haha!

okie..thats is all..for now haha!

take care everyone..Be Blessed!!!

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULI!!!!!!!!!!!God BLess you!!!!!!!!!love you!!!MUACKKKKKZZ!!!!

mmm i did quizz..took it from janice my bro gf de blog hahaz..im just too bored at home now haha!

which alcholic drinks are u?

Wine

sigh~just finished talking to my brother on the phone.he's in camp now.sigh~im really dying~~~~sigh...i hate my life.i never like to use the word hate.but,whatever that happen...i really hate it.sigh~~

well.yesterday another thing happen again.xiao aunt came my house.not only come my house,she intend to stay in my house.without even giving me a call to just inform me or whatever.i told her that next time want to come over just give me a call.know what reply i got?xiao aunt:need to call mehz?Jessie:deep in my heart i feel so irritated.like wad?don't have to call mehz?go other people house don't have to call one mehz?well..back to the story.den i told her about the changing of arrangement that she've made..she replied..i go anyone house,i treat their house as my house.WOW she is just taking other people's house as if its hers!and i continue talking about the settings stuff...and she suddenly just change topic..talk about what maid thing.which has nothing to do with what im saying.then,she lied.!!oh my gosh!!!she lied!!!!!!!oh man!i HATE LIARS!man!!YUCKS!i ask if its my big aunt who ask her to come over my place.xiao aunt says no.den start saying things like:wo kan zai nai nai de fen sang lai here..well she is just using someone who is so important to me..and i did not believe her in the first place..if she is wei le my nai nai she wun be coming now.she should wei le my nai nai and come over frm the time my nai nai stay over uncles place.and obviously she is lying.so i called big aunt asking if she ask small aunt to come..she said:aiya yi liang tian okie de lah.Jessie:in my heart=HUH?ur house or my house?who do the saying now?well den nvm...all the story i know changed...

wilson called..he told me that uncle joseph told big aunt that the house is dirty and my room is smelly..and i was shocked...how could my entire home be smelly when i almost clean it everynow and then?and where is the smelly place..its uncle joseph's spot!and why i say that?have you ever wonder why i keep cleaning the house?its because uncle joseph.the spot..where he is at or the spot where he touched...its not clean.example:when he uses the toilet,did not clean the sitting with tissue coz there's urine there!den,brush teeth,the toothpaste..drop on the basin and the foam fllllyyyyy to the wall there and my tap he did not clean it..and whenever he use cups to drink...drink and leave it there...and wait for me to clean it lahz..and eventually i did..sigh!!

he may think that im like big aunt will wash his dirty socks which he left it there for almost two weeks..i did not..and in the end..he washed it himself.he stays in my house..without even telling me or my bro or my dad if he is staying..uncle francis gave keys to him..well the key is my grandma's keys.and he take it as if my house is for him to stay.he stays in my house,i did not even ask him to share the housework.did not even ask him to clean the toilet..all the housework i do by my own handS!!!!!!all he can do is to just come home and sleep..btw...he is in his forties...sad right..so old le..still likdat..sigh..he stays at big aunt house,big aunt did all the washing for him clothes all that...sad right..sigh~~~~come my house..i wun be so good to help him.he is old enough to take care of himself..oh..he say the house not clean...my room smelly..don't come lahz..come for wad?smelly house,room...don't come lohz..and..im staying alone..how dirty can my hse bE?with him ard..more dirty...sigh!!terrible!!

well..ytd melissa came over my house ytd..and big aunt wanna get back at me coz i told my brother of what she did...commanding people to do things..she told my brother that i bring friends home..please lehz...i bring girls home...guang ming zheng da..scared wad...and too bad,she do not know that how well my brother knows me..he knows i never bring guys home..hahaz..try to get me into trouble...too bad...im honest.im not a liar..so wun get into any trouble.

basically,she lied..big aunt told bro that uncle joseph told her the hse to dirty so big aunt ask small aunt to come and clean...but why did small aunt lie to me that is not big aunt who ask her but is for my nai nai's sake?and few days b4 this happen she say that match the keys is to bring nai nai home de.and sun bian clean..but i rejected...she say help me clean..but why now she say uncle joseph complain that the place is dirty..?isnt it wierd?small aunt say..she nv even have salary for cleaning and she still help coz of nai nai..but still lied..sigh!!its not coz of my nai nai...is my big aunt ask her to come...maybe to spy on me ba..or should i say she is aiming my house now?well i do not know..its so sad when you cant trust anyone in the family..sigh...i can only trust brother and daddy..but..one is oversea..and one is serving the country..and me???sigh...staying in the pathetic place with so many bad people..how to keep on keeping on now?how lah?i still cant believe it..my house smelly?or is he who is smelly?btw..wilson,my beloved brother..told me.. to leave everything to him..he ask me to study hard..and take care of the house..wad a nice brother i've got..he's getting a lock tmr!!and i will have more peace from then on!!!hopefully!!

since small aunt lied to me..since big aunt says rubbish and do things behind my back..does that means that she had betrayed the trust i have for her?sigh..so sad about it..my life is hell....

i've been going school late..problemsss problemssss...problems that i cant handle...sigh..i dun wan to do anything....will i fall to that well again?sigh.....i hope not!

school went great...feel excited over everything...heee!!!thank God for the friends i have in school...blessed to have them..they brightens up my life someway.hahaz!

wadeva it is..im tired..

-gone-

just got home 15mins ago from school.went swimming with peishan and serena.wow.the three of us was so excited.during lunchtime..was hoping its 4pm so off we can go for swimming!

hahaz..and we headed to the swimming pool after lesson...and change and jump into the big big pool!!!hahaz!!its soooOOO shiok!hahaz.but i got so affected by some people i see..sigh..i don't how and what to react lohz..its just some girls in the school swimming..the guys don't have to like stand side by side to each other just to look at us...but eventually they did!sigh!!and another guy..man!!this same guy,whom i rejected..i did not want to give him my number..he got so upset...he seems like he hates me man!but who cares about him hate me or not..but then,his friend pass by the pool saw me..and they called him on his mobile!!MAN!!!!!and he came...and see see see!!!!and they way he sees is like he fold his arms..and stand at the stairs railing..and bend and see!!!oh gosh!!!and is keep seeing de lehz..sigh..perverts!den some worst...go all the way up to level dunno wad to take a nicer view...sigh...at that time the pool has only the three girls and 4 guys whom i do not know..the guys in the pool did not do anything..except for the guys outside the pool area...one...together with his group...how should i put it...this guy wan my number but i did not give..den,everytime see him i just give him a smile..and walk away..nv even talk..and i dunno why...the entire group of his friends..know who am i..sigh..den..at the pool...one took out his camera phone..and u know la....sigh.i dunno if he did take that picture...i hope not..sigh...how?why are people in the world likedat?why??????how am i gonna swim again....sigh!!the pool is like sooo nice...so big...and so clean..i den dun wan the guys to enjoy using the facilities...i also want to use it..some even wan to step into the area to sit down and see..but..the lifeguard did a great job haha!he did not allow them haha!the area available only for the swimmerssss!!!haha!!sigh.......

the moment i reached home...i thought my house jin zei!sigh..but its not..my aunt came over to clean up my house...but the prob is..she says she want the house key so she can bring my grandma home...so i agreed and gave her the keys to my house...then!!!!!ARGHH...she also say...she can help to clean up the house..scared i dunno how to....i on the spot..rejected the offer..i say bu yong le..i know how de...den she nv listen loh!stupid lohz!!ITS MY HOUSE!!!!!!!I STAY HERE I RULE MY HOUSE LOH!!she came...clean...and did more than cleaning!!!change the position of everything...the place where i put my noodle..gone...the place where all little small plastic bags..GONE!!!my cups place....all gone...my make up...gone to dunno where...which i spent quite awhile to find it back..den i got upset..coz everything is in a messed...everything changed...i dunno where to find this and that...and u know,when u need to find something..cant find..u'll feel irritated lohz!!!and i am that kinda type!but its after a long finding lahz..hahaz..den.....ARGH how..the more i sae the more im angry..i feel so warm now loh..so hot lohz..too not happy liao!sigh!she say my house dirty...still say i tell her i clean...but she did worst...she clean my toilet...took away the plastic bag which i use to stuff the hole just in case water flow thru the other side...took away nv put back...take the pails and wash...put in the bathroom nv put back...all my pots...all my cups all my plates..all change place....till now..i cant find my small little plastic bagS!!!!ARGHHH!!i very not happy lehz...why must she likdat?WHY?????????i said no need...mean NO NEED......den i tell her...all the things that i cant find..she tell me to shut up!omgosh!!!!!!!!how could she!!!!so bu jiang li!!!!i said no need to clean as i know how to...she came and change everything as if is her house!!!sigh...im gonna buy a lock...i dun care anymore.,I HATE IT SOOOO MUCH WHEN PEOPLE TREAT ME THIS WAY!!I HATE IT>>>I REALLY HATE IT!!!!ARGGGHH how im very not happy.......sigh!!WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!why all this have to happen to me.......i hate all this...my family...sigh YUCKS!!!!she says i nv even say thank you that she clean...but in the first place i say no need!!!!she came and everything jus change!!!!i really hate it....they way she say shut up....i really dun wan to see her anymore lohz!sigh!give her house key is to bring grandma home once a week...not ask her to come in as in when she like...come and dao luan!thanks for dao luaning my beloved home!now everything change...my mood change..i no mood to do anything..all im doing now is angry..i cant take it man!!!!!!!ARGHHH i feel like screaming!!!!!!!!!i hate this i hate this!!!!!i hate this!!!ask u this question:do u just go to someone house when someone not at home and just change all the settings in the house and when the person say no need to clean?do you?sigh!!!!!!my room got only 2 dustbin..now got three...my living room no box..now got one box dunno do wad...my kitchen below the basin no pail...now got pail...my mop dunno at where liao...my food change from beside the fridge all the way to the drawer!!!WHY?????why does she want to change everything?sigh...she have no changed after all these years..still think she still rules over my life?still think she take care of me?still think my house is her house?still think she can do wad she like in my house?why she likedat...cannot respect me a little bit mehz....i like my house the way it is...y must she change?why....my house!!ARGHHHHH!!!i hate!!!!i hateeeeee!!!!i hate ittTTT sO much!!!!!!!

I WANT TO BUY LOCK!!!!!!!

today:BAD DAY!wonder when will my day be good....its has not been good since the year started...problems and problemsssssss........i cannot breathe liao....cant handle it....sigh....but....it happen coz God knows i can handle lehz....but i really very angry lehz...how?????sigh....nvm..forget it...slp and forget everything..i really hope jus zzz so everything can be forgotten...

well..change story...took some pictures in school today...


it's Iskandar and meEEe!!look!!!im white and he's black!!hahhaa!!!


its nelson mee...and julianaaaa.!!!


wow!!look!Issss eyes is like sssooooooo chantek sia...hahaha!!opppsss..

well that's all haha...

take care everyone...

i just finish revising my Office Organisation stuff.tomorrow im having Common Test on that subject!!oh gosh!!God give me wisdom..God strengthen me!!so i wun be tired or lazy lahz!hahaz

well.today,i did housework worz...heez..not surprising le lahz.today i sweep and mop and clean the toilet..and change the bedsheets..hahaz..and pack the house haha!

mm..just wanna type this here..coz i dun have other place to say or to tell to.hahaz.well..i have a friend..a very close friend.my best friend..whom i treasure a lot.someone that plays a big part in my life...in the time of my past and my present..ever since she stepped out to work...just temporary job lahz,i guess she changed..well.i cant control her..but,seeing the way she've changed..im abit sad about it.i just find that its so not her..words that she says,dun fits up to her character and her looks..im sure she'll look great if those rough words disappear?hopefully?she seldom use vulgarities lahz..i trust that she dun..eventhough i dunno if she does..but these days she like to say siao eh..my gang..i was shocked when i read what she typed...because i feel its jus so not her....she is such a gentle girl.but words likdat coming out from her....abit.......tad gam lehz..den i always try to tag her...telling her this and that...but well..all i can say is..she is stubborn lahz..whenever i see her tag or i read her blog..i always question myself...why?why she likdat...?wad happen?she says its just a name..a nick..well..what i think is that,if she got used to calling siao eh or gang...by the time she step out to work..she is so used to calling that..then it will make her sound like a ah lian..dun u think so?i really think so lehz..maybe i gotta know her too long,not used to seeing her say all this hahaz..i really not used to it lehz.haha..and i don't want to get used to it..coz its not a good influence haha!i would not wan to be a girl that...eh...siao eh...my gang likdat..haha!not nice to my ears lehz haha!but well..its others peoples mouth..not mine..i can only comment it and step aside..seeing her as my best friend,i dun care if she get angry that i say her or wad..i dun care if she will stay away from me or wad...i just want to tel her how i feel..isnt it good to have a fren that is being frank with you..eventhough the both of you are drifting..and the friend just tell u wad she feels and what she thinks...one thing about people is,they need to have a heart that is willing to take in and change..and i mean change for the better...and that time...late le..still go drinking...sighh..hmm..maybe...she is my past?when i was younger,i like drinkin also worz hahaha!!sometime...curiousity killlssss....i was so curious about going to pubs all that and club..i regretted steppin into it...i feel so yucky haha!pay so much to one place,squeeze with so many people,somemore not friends...dance with people whom i do not know...abit wierd haha!and under the lights...eyesore lehz haha!can buy torchlight dance with music at home lohz..at most blast the music and light with different colours torchlight..candle also can..lan man qing diao haha!opps...okie im mad..aha!whatever it is..to my dear friend if u are reading my bloggie...just rem..all the tags i give u,i just wan to encourage u..and tellin u how i feel..coz i dun see u everyday..dun even see u for so long...just tryin to help u...eventhough u did not ask..just wanna be there for u..because u mean something to me.and u know that..i just want you to take good care of yourself..must know the do's and the don'ts..i hope u got wad i meant..

well..im gonna zzz le..got school tmr..sianz...school home school home school home church school home school home...housework..tv eat...slp...same things i do all the time...and...its like...i do not have enough time to event sit down and shake leg lehz hahaz..so isit good or isit baD?all i want is peace and more time.................hahaha!!i miss my Dear Lord..my Almighty God!!

goodnight dear friends...!!!

love you all a thousand loaddddsss!!MUAakkk

just got home about 15mins ago.hahaz.sigh..know what happen?as some of you guys know that today i am going to the SIS for Rev Benny Hinn Healing crusade..wow!!the place is sooooo FILLED with people..and is really VERY FILLED...sOOOooOO FILLED till people like me who were in the queue since 4++pm..all the way till 8++pm, was not able to get in to the stadium.its so fullyyyy PACKED With MANY MANY people lohz...and many people got turn down..and was ask to be back tomorrow..some are not happy about it..and make fuss about it...some love to push and push...some fainted...and some really fainted till like they have to cling on thier relatives i think..there's an old lady,manz...can you imagine,she is also in the queue...faRRR faRR back from mee....and i was standing for sooOO long till both my legs are ACHING...whats more can the old granny afford to tolerate?she is already bai far chang chang le..sigh..and some people just sooo NOT considerate...just keep pushing and pushing...till everyone is shouting....STOP PUSHING and even me..haha..well..not very loud..hahaz...i think i scream noone can hear also haha!i really want to go into the stadium lehz..sigh...nevermind...tmr will be a better service..haha!!!well...here are the pictures of many people...ahahaz...from bai tian wait dao tian hei hei...sigh.......


eh..im a little short..so cant take picture of more people yah hahazz....


hehe..nice?????i took it worz..to entertain myself...under the hot weather..and getting fed up with people who keep pushing!!aRGGHHHhhHHH


welll...in the midst of waiting...my very old friend..peiwen aka ah wen...was in the same queue as me...and she is not feeling well...having pains in her stomach...poor gal...must take real care ah wen...hahahz


these are the people who cant get into the stadium....from bai tian till tian hei hei sia...so many people...some even flew from indonesia to singapore just for this Healing crusade by Rev Benny Hinn...


look!!the people...so many of them...included me myself...cant get in...sigh.......


look!!i raised my hand HIGH HIGH!!SEE more PEOPLE Le HOR!!hahaz


its me...together with jasmine....hahahz....in school hahaz

well..that's all for the pictures...im gonna really step in the SIS TOMORROW!!!i really wan to seee......Anne told me...blind got healed......ppl lying on the dunno wad that called...got up and got healed...man!!!!i really want to seee!!!!!!!

tomorrow gtg for NDP thing...after that rush to SIS heee....weeEEE!!!feeling so excited now!!

know wad..i did this test..took it from a friends blog...like wad age do i act...man!!!i feel so old after i finish the test....know wad's my age?25 sia!!EEEwww...i den dun wan so old....its says:20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.[well..i am excited for everything everyday..im excited for love...im excited for what i will do in the future...well..and also to gain new experiences...but likdat...25years old mehz?siao lehz...i dun wan so old sia...can i be a kid?kids thinking very ke ai lehz hahaahaha!!!!!

okie...im getting a little mad here..haha

gtg le...take care everyone!!!!Love you all to bITITTTTTTSSSSS...MUAccccKKKKK!!

Be Blessed!!!

well.slacking at for now.sigh.feel so fustrated lohz.sigh..don't wish to talk abt it.i've already forgiven you.that's all i can say.

school was fine.nothing happen..well thanks Justin for sending all Canon in D music for me.thanks...i just love it haha!its so nice!!!!!!!!thank you soOOoo much!!!

weee..tomorrow Rev Benny Hinn is coming to the Singapore Indoor Stadium..wEEE!!!its a healing crusade...i need to be healed...for everything...tmr have to rush down straight from school as doors will be open at 6pm..cant go home and change...so gotta wear uniform down...hahahz..

im tired...gtg my lalala land...

take care peeps...

love you all..

disappointments..im so filled with disappointments...with what?with the people i see in school..and with some friends i have in school..im just disappointed..

the story goes like this, i have a friend, a friend whom i trusted most in school, a friend whom i thought is different from the others..a friend whom i thought is mature enough..a friend whom i thought that wouldn't play me..or shall i say,take me as a joke?or just take me for the sake of fun?for the sake of disturbing?well..this particular person,gave my msn away to someone else..and that someone else act as a person whom..i fancy..and im like already feeling so bothered by this person that i fancy..trying not to think about him and continue on my studies...not getting distracted by anything...but this friend or not friend anymore?do not know how to be a little considerate..a person who does not think of consequences...does not think how would another part feels if he/she is being treated this way...okie...back to my story..was saying this person gave away my msn..and to that friend of This PErson...that friend enjoys it so much to play me...asking for my age asking for my school..asking for my number...and even say...give me your number so i can sms u goodnite message..and the friend even said...shall i pick u up in school?well is either pick up or wadever...i don't remember...such...silly childish things..and i ask my this friend WHOM i TRUSTED!!asking if this friend gave away my msn...AND this FRIEND..happily says:no..denying that THIS friend do not know the e-mail address i ask!well..and my this friend continued on the journey to trick me,play me,irritate me,disturb me..taking me as a joke...thinking im alright about it...thinking JESSIE IS SUCH A EZ PERSON to DEAL WITH..thinking that even if this person goes overboard, i will not be upset..thinking that everything will be JUST FINE!and they both,happily continueeeeee....till when i found out,and how i found out their stupid...plot.....it shall be kept confidential..hahaz.long story..don't want to say..well..or i can say..im smarter?im not only SMART...i MUST BE SMARTER..and i wILL BE.for with God...all thing are possible...

oh yes...when i know its the friend..i told that friend to stop playing..and even..said the name of THAT friend...and THat friend...happily...continue...acting....well...OBviously....the act failed!i was sad about it...VERY sad about it...a friend i trusted most in school,a friend who is impt in my life also..a friend who i hang ard with all the time..a friend whom i thought is a great person....doing things likdat...just for fun...JUST FOR THE STUPID SAKE OF FUN!and thanks...for the tears i drop again...calling ting....miss ting even more each day goes...noone understands me except my cgm and ting jo mel etc...noone knows who i am expect them,noone knows anything except them..and the both of them....are also my friend.....oh gosh...why would friends do such things to one another...hurting them this way?sigh.......thanks.......THANKS so much...well..its another way of moulding my character...and now i know theres such people on earth...welll....they are the FIRST people who did that to me!!!!!!!thanks SOOO much!!!!!"THANKS"

sigh...wish june 20 will come asap.........will it jus come....now?now????sigh....now pleasE?sigh....or can i just faster finish this poor one year course...and fly out this place....i wish i could keep on keeping on...i wish i could just hold on to the rope..but i just feel like letting it off now....im tired of holding on....im just soooooooooo tired....................HATE IT!

sigh....wad a day!WAD A DAY!!!well...its been a great interesting day...a character moulding day...........

it will be great if those people just stop when i sae stop!it will BE JUST SO WONDERFUL GREAT!!!!

God bless those people!!!

i want a big heart...a heart filled with forgiveness...a heart filled with patience...a heart filled with mercy............................a just want a big big big big heart!!!

take care everyone....

Thanks to the people who make me drop tears..................................................

sigh...i miss you so much...hao bu rong yi ke yi he ni zai yi qi...but you left me again......................

the few hours we spent,just sitting on the sofa...the precious moment...the moment where you and me talk laugh...but they came....and bring u back.....still remember our hands..holding on together while taking the cab back home...hold on together from the time u left the house till the time u reach my house..i really miss you sooooo much...seeing you leaving my house back to thier house...i really hate that feeling....~tears dropping down againnnnnnnnnnnnn

why would they want you to go over?why would they?????coz of the maid...coz noone can take care of you..i want to,but i have to go school...i want to see you everyday....but...coz of noone to takecare of you..i cant see you...

he say i don't apreciate the things he did...wad must i do so he will feel that i apreciated everythig he did for me?what else more do he wan?

she wants to come back so badly...fell on her head yesterday...saw one bruise mark on her arm...she cant walk properly...she misses me everyday....she says:in her mind she misses me,but she did not say it out... i miss her so much but everything just cuts in my way...i want to see her everyday....

whatever...whatever.....whatever..........................................................

hee..just got home from bedok..went for cell group meeting..hahaha!!!after cgm...had refreshment..marvin prepared the refreshments for the cg...wow!!marvin cook fried rice for us!!!!isn't he gReaT?haha...butttt..butt...the rice...is filled with oil..........hahahzz...which makes it look so shiny...hahaha!!!but it still taste great!hahaha...yum yum...

hmm..after eating...shar went church..edwin peishan went off..and rowena rochelle..and etc went off..left jae,tf,xin-er,jan,mike and me..hee...and we...decided to play the piano!!!haha..wow...i know how to play piano worz..haha..i love it!!!anne played cannon in d..WOW!!!i really love it!!and i really want to play it also!!!i wannnnnnnn!!!hahazz....and tf played guitar...wow..he know how to play guang huai fang shi worz...Tf u ji li hai worz...hahaz..

hmm..im tired..need to clean up e house..sianz..must do housework...hmmm..

lalalalalala...

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got home about half an hour ago.yAwn~im tired~...today school ended early!!yippeeEe..lesson ended at 12pm haha!was eating lunch at tampines mall..wanted to eat ljs de..but one of my friend cant eat that for a month..so i don't want to tempt her also.so i don't eat lohz haha!

hmm.yesterday don't have time to blog..sigh..know what happen?can you believe that i actually have difficulty in handling dead xiao qiang..i spent half and hour yesterday screaming at home..together with melissa..it was 12+++am then,both of us screaming...don't know how to take that xiao qiang away..its my house,so i got to think of a way to get rid of that yucky xiao qiang..i hate xiao qiang lohz..sigh..i don't even dare to get close it..yuck yuck yuck!!EeeeeeEE EErrRRrrrrr....i was so scared of that xiao qiang loh..then its like it died overturn which is 4 jiao chao tian type lahz..den i use paper wanting to take it up onto another paper..and i OVERTURN it..man!!!and it look so ALIVE!!and i SCREAM and RUN!!leaving the paper back onto the floor.the xiao qiang look so shiny and the mao is moving..due to wind lah hahaz..im just so imaginative,thinking it might come alive halfway lahz..den..no choice i still gotta settle that xiao qiang..and i went back..kneeling on the floor..thinking how to get rid of it..well..as u know..i had never touch dead xiao qiang,all was done by the maid and grandma..so i never do anything..now i gotta handle it...i seriously have got NO courage to do that!but then,called nelson..ask him how..and nelson..laugh at me!hahaz..whatever..haha..then nelson say use newspaper..so i use lohz..i still don't dare to take it..then melissa find chopstick and pull the paper where the xiao qiang is at onto the newspaper,and its my turn,i gotta bring it to the open/close dustbin..and that very time,to the dustbin seems like a long distance...when i took it up,and walk afap to the dustbin..i did not dare to open that..i scream and jump and screamMMmm....melissa also don't know what to do..i just scream and said:MEL FASTER OPEN THAT THING!!!!NOW FASTER FASTER FASTER!!!!and i continue screaming ahha!!and i threw that xiao qiang in liao..i kick the thing to close it..and i ran back to my room....annddddd..........i cried...scared la!the thing is sooooooo super errrr xin.....after that...done...nothing disturb me liao.hahaz.my terrifying experience...that xiao qiang!YUCK!i hate xiao qiang sOOOooooOOOo much!

hmm...later im gonna go church...weEEeee...i misss everyone there...so long never see u all liao...hahazz..got miss me mah everyone?hahaz

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just send joanna darling off from my house..today my this darling super good worrz..sms me in the morning ask me if i want to have dinner with her tonight hahaz.and dinner at my house haha!good right?hahaz..hmm..

lesson ended at 4pm today and i rush home and wait for joanna's arrival..haha..den the both of us when to buy junk food..for our dinner haha!i ate noodle again haha!we bought chocolates...and the chocolate is the big big one lehz...cant finish by one person de..need to slowly eat de..den nata de coco..haha..grape flavour...buy liao but never eat...sianz..den bought Ribena haha!!but never drink also...dunno why joanna buy liao but never eat de..den she use the computer while i am doing the housework hahaa!!jo says the food give me..hahah..wow...darling lei hou hou worz...i si ni le lah...hahaz!!

SIGH!im very not happy at all lohz..sigh...today...i got back my Office Organisation test paper on Accounts Function 1..and i cant believe it that i did so badly...i scored only 36.5/60 only lohz!and i know i can do better than that!!!but i did not do it!!!wei ser mer zhe yang???!!!i felt so discouraged when i saw my marks...my heart sank at that moment my eyes touches the mark!!!!!i cant believe it!!!i want to go poly so badly......sigh......

its been almost 2weeks of being independent....and living alone..it's scarY?actually a lot of people want to be staying alone...they feel its better...but i dun...i want my grandma to be with me...sigh...i want to see herRRrr...aRGhh..why do they wanna take my grandma oveR?for wad?sigh...my house is soooOOooo quiet..cant stand the quietness...eventhough i love peace..i love to places that are quiet..but...at home....tooo quiet....is like....so not JESSIE lohz..sigh...imagine..jessie..keeping soooOoo quiet at home?and its really quiet..and all i did was to BLAST songs OUT LOUD so that i feel a little noisy?hahazz...

sigh...sianzzz....lalalaala....

nitez pplz